no load..pede naman mgtxt bwal lan mahabaang conversation at magkita..ahm not really magtaguan pero example yun sabay kakain..or tatambay..i'll just give the time..if -needs me badly..aww anyabang parang ako me kailangan sa kanya BADLY!..nakaya ko nga ngayon ih..try ko for the next days..ahm almost 4 days..start bukas ung hardest part..not being able to be with -.. ahm medyo mahirap yun how about like what i did last saturday..i was with - the whole day..it was odd but i can still control only that - noticed it..i'll work on it, so that it would be easy for me in the near future din..just one of the hardest part is yung pag-iisip..pinaka mahirap..at iniyakan ko talaga yun nun self awareness..knowing na ipagpilitan nun c.i. namin na it won't be the same..though it will be forever, or -'ll be there..IT WON'T BE THE SAME..sad but true..hate it but it might happen..the thing is im just preparing myself..
tama naman ih.."i really need you more that you need me..it isn't fair"-maggie murdock..tama hindi man nya ako kelangan..pero kelangan ko xa..maybe i can find someone who needed me just as i need him/her..im not looking for love..just someone who cares and someone who appreciatively and rightfully receive my care..yun tipong equal lang..kahit alam kong mahirap maging equal..
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